Ahh dangit...I dunno what to do anymore. I feel like I should leave dA but I want to stay. I just don't feel like I belong here, but I want to be a part of it. I really don't have that hyperness or motivation to go through my messages and deviations all happy and stuff like I used too be. :/ It's more like a chore to go through them now...and I am barely drawing anything anymore. I can hardly even draw crap anymore. -_- Now with me not being so active I'm loosing some watchers and friends I used to have...ugh I need help...It's just making me feel bad that I can't do anything, even for my friends...I can't make a decision...I can't just stay here and let my messages accumulate and all this with no new drawings because I am failing! I even try to force myself to draw and nothing...I can't just wait for a drawing spurt to come because it doesn't help...so just to let my watchers know, I am a lazy person I have no motivation anymore...I guess that is just how it will be. I can't find a solution. :/

But know this. Whoever is watching me for pageviews and for me to comment your deviations and not just because you liked my art...go ahead and unwatch me. I am sick of watchers that do this, and that think it's ok not to acknowledge the person you watch. I know, some of you are busy and can't comment, and that is ok. But not people who think they need to watch others for there own purpose of getting comments. It's not gonna work on me. -_- But you know what, to you, I probably seem just like this type of person...and it is why I think it's best that I leave....but I really don't want to go...I'm just stuck.

Bye for now,

AC

P.S. I apologize to my newest watchers for not acknowledging you and your art quite yet...